A Blue Hour Forum

(I just want to say that I don't know if this will ever reach Stephanie Meyer's eyes- or for that matter ears- but I have to at least put this out for it to hopefully reach her. Either way, I have found my much needed catharsis. I just wanted to let her know how much she helped me and how grateful I am.)

Before I start typing my real message, I need to get something off my chest: I possibly rank in the worlds top 20 most pessimistic people. And I haven't been truly happy since I was 10 years old. I'm now 19, turning 20 in October. I won't say that my life has been necessarily hard or that I've endured any more than the average person. Simply because.. I haven't. I just don't have a lot of the characteristics that other people seem to possess to keep them going, which is a fundamental short-coming of mine.

My point about that little paragraph of information on me, is that while I waited for Breaking Dawn to be released, while I waited at the party at our local bookstore, I had my doubts. Afterall, J.K. Rowling is still in my “hate mail” list because of Harry Potter's ending. The ending was short, concise, and it was rushed at best. So, I didn't have much faith in Stephanie Meyer to do any better. In fact, I feared she would disappoint me even more.

However, she is now... something of a hero for me. Thanks to Breaking Dawn, I am truly happy. For the first time in so long, I feel like I'm 10 years old again. That the world isn't such a bad place, and that... despite all the years it may take, all the hurdles I may have to jump, no matter what I have to face and endure, fight and conquer and learn, everything in the end will be okay.

I don't know for certain how a mere book could do what friends and family have never been able to do for me. Maybe those friends and family just didn't know how to make me see the light. Maybe I just had to find it on my own (or stumble across it, as is the case). Whatever the case, it's pretty much a moot point now because I believe that on my deepest levels, as a woman, a reader, and most importantly of all, as a 19 year old lost in trying to find who she is, where she's going, and why, in a person that lost the ability to have faith long ago, this book was the ray of light I no longer believed I'd find. I interpret this feeling as an instinctual sign that if a mere book went the way I wanted it to, past what I could have hoped for, and been better than I ever dreamed, then maybe my life, maybe life in general can be the same way. Maybe there's something out there for me to hold on for.

I finished the book at 11:00pm August 2 and I'm still crying- happily crying. Thank you, Stephanie Meyer, from the bottom of my heart. I will be looking for the boxed set of the Twilight series and I hope I can be there for the release of it to get one of the first copies. (In other words, I'll be stalking your website for news of it's release and request off for the day.)

This story will stay with me forever. That despite their difficulties and the battles they had to win, Edward and Bella are now happily living the fairy tale I lost to the turmoil of growing up. That their fictional (and yet much sought after) love may be out there- and not just for me, but for anyone else who dares to hang on, fight, and have faith. Again, thank you so very, very much for returning something so vital and precious to me. Thank you for proving me wrong.

Heather

I have to say i was really touched by your story, and i'm glad the books make you feel this way. I know i'm always much happier if i'm thinking about Twilight, so i can understand completely what you are saying

Glad to have you on board !

That was really touching. Before reading the Twilight series, I was a little depressed. And now, after reading Breaking Dawn, theres a soft warm feeling inside of me again, and just like Bella, I feel complete (I know that sounds really cheesy lol)

I'm glad to have you here!

xD Just for the record, I stopped crying at about 1am or so.

And thanks for the welcome. ^^

Hey Heather! Your story was really touching and I love it when books make people feel things! I am sure that if Stephenie ever saw this she would be truly touched as well.